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  “Oh, James.” His hands are everywhere. His lips too. He’s all over me, I can barely keep track of him. Not that I’m trying. My eyes have fallen closed and I’m just feeling the magic sensations he’s giving me.

  A scream bursts out from my mouth as he yanks my top away. I think I hear it tear, but his lips and teeth are all over my nipples right now, making it very hard to care about anything else. The top can be replaced, this phenomenal flurry of excitement can’t be. I would rather knot my fingers up in his hair, than worry. I tug at him every time it feels good, and the longer he works my breasts, the better it feels…

  “Holy hell,” I pant as I realize that he’s sliding lower, moving down my body until his fingers are hooked around the waist band of my pants and he tugs them down. “Oh, James, take them down.”

  My head lolls to one side as the desire grips me. He’s undressing me too slowly. He’s making the best effort to tease me until I can’t stand it, which is already working. I wish he wouldn’t push me so hard.

  “You are so beautiful.” He nestles his nose against my core, making me whimper like a pussy cat. “And your scent is absolutely intoxicating. Oh God, I can’t wait to taste you, Rue.” His fingers get tighter. “You’re amazing.”

  He brushes his nose against my wet core, inhaling my excitement for him. It’s nerve wracking to be so open and exposed for him, but at the same time- my thighs fall apart for him, inviting him in deeper. This is an invitation that he takes willingly, his lips pushing in a kiss against my clit which is fucking wonderful.

  “Fuck, that feels good.” My head falls back, slamming against the wall, adding to the dizziness. “So good.”

  “You want more?” His breath tickles me, making my heart nearly explode in my chest.

  “Yes, oh God,” I groan, half in agony, half in sheer ecstasy. “I want so much more, James.”

  His tongue darts over my clit, before plunging inside of me. It feels so fucking good, even better than his fingers which I honestly didn’t know was possible. There are sounds coming out of me that I didn’t even know I could make. Then again, I didn’t know it was possible to feel this incredible at all.

  But I’m not prepared for what’s about to come, I don’t think I ever could be. The passion seems to grip James all over again, and he becomes a mad man on a mission. There certainly isn’t any more teasing or taking things slowly, he is sending me on the steam tracks towards the station regardless of whether I’m ready for it or not.

  I might not be ready for it, but I’m happy as all hell about it. It fills my chest with a sexy heat that pushes me even further in love with this man. As the pleasure circles me, I fly higher than the air. I soar above the planet because of James, and it’s fucking everything. I tense up, my muscles screaming and yelling for more and he’s giving it to me. He’s giving me all of him. Then I fall hard, drowning under the waters of pleasure, letting the bliss James is giving under the power of his mouth consume me. He must be holding me upright because I would fall otherwise. I would tumble to the ground and hit it hard, but it’d still feel wonderful because the orgasm really is that intense. It’s the sharpest lightning bolt of pleasure I have had.

  When James pulls himself up into a standing position. I almost tumble. So, he grabs me and takes me over to the couch. As he drops my body, causing all the air to shred from my lungs, I stare up at him with nothing but love in my eyes. I feel everything for him, I see a seriously romantic future with him, and I want it all. The weight of his body upon me as he climbs up me, like a predator coming to consume his prey only strengthens all of those emotions. I reach up and grab his cheeks to pull him in for a kiss, trying to show him how badly I like him.

  We kiss for a few moments, before the impatience gets to him and he peels back to undress himself. I push myself into a sitting position to help him, mostly because I want to get my hands all over that body of his. I love everything about his chest, his thighs, what he has hiding in his pants for me.

  All of a sudden, he pushes me back down again and I can feel him ready for me, wanting me, needing to be inside of me. But even in the heat of the moment, I know that we’re missing something.

  “Protection,” I rasp out, struggling to be smart with the thick foggy haze of lust surrounds me. “Don’t forget.”

  “Do we need it?” he asks while kissing the hyper sensitive skin on my throat. “If we’re forever.”

  “What do you mean?” My eyes fall closed and my head lolls back. “No protection? You know what that means, don’t you? You did have… ooh!” It’s so hard to keep focused. “You did have sex ed, right?”

  “I know what could happen, but I want that with you. A family, a future, all of it.”

  I press my hand to his chest and force him off me for just a moment. My heart thunders against my rig cage and it’s damn near impossible for me to get any air in to my lungs. “You want that with me? Are you sure?”

  “I love you,” he tells me, as if it’s completely obvious. “I want the whole thing with you.”

  I brush my fingers over his lips, trying to sort out all of these feelings. But the fact that he’s been brave and told me first makes all of this so much easier for me. “I love you too, James. So much.”

  He kisses me chastely a couple more times. “So, what’s the problem? I love you, that’s something I haven’t ever felt before, and you love me. So, we can have a future together, can’t we? Me and you.”

  God, it’s intoxicating. No one has ever seen me in such a serious light before and I can’t help but love it. “I haven’t ever felt this way about anyone before either. Of course, I want all of that with you. That future sounds…”

  It’s the future that I didn’t even know I wanted, but as James slips all the way inside of me, it feels like the most natural thing in the world. It’s perfect, and I have to admit it feels different as well. I don’t know if that’s the lack of condom, or the fact that we have told one another how we feel. We’re in love, I can’t believe it.

  “Oh, fuck,” I gasp as he thrusts hard, each stroke hitting me in all the right spots. He might have only just given me a blast of pleasure, but already I can feel another one coming. The most important one of our lives because it seals our future. A very serious future by the sound of it. Not that I’m complaining.

  It looks like I’m staying in America now for good, and damn it feels amazing to have this decision made.

  I twist and flip our bodies over until I’m the one on top, needing the control. I press my hand to his chest and sit astride him so he can see all of my body. I want him to really see me, and who I am for him.

  “You are stunning,” James growls as he grabs my hips to claim me as I ride him. “I love you, Rue.”

  I don’t think I will ever tire of hearing those words. I kinda want to say them again as well, just to feel them on my tongue. I like the way they feel inside of me. “I love you too, James. God, I love you.”

  I lean down and kiss him, just as the orgasm explodes once more. James’s mouth swallows up my screams which puts a bit of me inside of him, just like he’s doing to me. I cling tightly to him as he shudders and erupts, the pleasure shooting hard from him, and that’s exactly how we remain for a few moments, in one another’s arms, hugging through the post orgasmic bliss, loving one another with every single part of ourselves.

  “Are you okay now?” I ask quietly as I run my finger over his chest, loving every part of his skin, particularly the sensation of his heartbeat. “You seemed all fired up when you came in. I was worried about you.”

  “I was fired up all for you,” he declares, but there is something strange in his tone. I’m not one hundred percent sure that he’s telling the truth. I can only assume that it’s something else to upset him and he isn’t quite ready to talk about it yet. As long as the love part was real, I can take the rest of it. “Because you are everything to me.”

  “So, I guess this is our future now, right? Me and you.”

  “It sure
is. And nothing has ever made me as excited as this.”

  He kisses me, reassuring me, and I can’t help but get caught up in the thrill of what’s to come. I guess we have overcome a lot of the bad parts now… or we’re in the middle of doing so, and we just have a lot of good things to look forward to. I’m very excited.

  Chapter Twenty-One

  James

  “We need a meeting,” Noah tells me firmly as soon as class is over. “Do you mind? Do you have time now?”

  “A meeting? That sounds pretty serious. What’s going on?” I sling my backpack over my shoulder.

  “We just need to have a talk, that’s all. Can you come into my office, please?”

  There is definitely something in the air, something that leaves me a little confused, but I do what I can to remind myself that this is my friend as well as my teacher. He has my best interests at heart always. That’s the reason why I follow him willingly into his office and I take a seat opposite him.

  “What’s going on, Noah?” I can’t keep the edge from my voice. “You’re freaking me out here.”

  “I just need to know what’s happening with you. We haven’t had a talk in a while now, and I can see that there is lots troubling you. I keep wanting to ask, but Leo tells me I should leave you until you’re ready to come to me, but it’s been about three months since we all went out to lunch. Maybe even closer to four, and you still haven’t come to me about it, so I can’t hack it any longer. I want to be able to help you, if I can.”

  I hang my head low, knowing that I have buried my head in the sand with all of this for far too long. I do have people who care about me and want to help me, and I’ve just pushed them aside so I can deal with it myself.

  “It’s been a fucking mess, Noah. Ever since that lunch things have gone from bad to crazy.” Yet I can’t stop a smile from rising to my face. “Yet somehow amazing as well. It’s the best time of my whole life.”

  Noah leans back in his chair and folds his arms across his chest before staring at me. “Your stepsister.”

  My heart skips a beat. “How did you know? Am I really that predictable?”

  “I knew it the moment I saw you looking at her. There was something different in your eyes. Something that I don’t really want to see from you, until you are at least thirty years of age. You’re much too young now.”

  I roll my eyes, refusing to comment on the fact that this man is thirty and nowhere near settling down. “Okay, well that’s beside the point. Yes, things have been growing between me and Rue and it’s been wonderful.”

  “You better not be telling me that you’re in love with this chick. Seriously, I don’t want to hear it.”

  I shrug and smirk, knowing that I’m fully there now. Saying it aloud to Rue all those weeks ago was utterly liberating, and we haven’t been able to stop saying it since. The novelty is nowhere near wearing off, nor is the intense and powerful chemistry between us. We can’t keep our hands off of one another.

  “Oh my God, you are a fool, James. To fall for anyone so young is crazy. You’re talking about love and stuff, but do you really understand the implications of that? Think about spending the rest of your days with this woman. Your whole life. Eighty odd years. Can you actually picture it? Doesn’t that seem wild to you?”

  I shrug once more. “Thinking about that now only makes me happy, that’s all. Nothing else.”

  “Oh God,” Noah groans. “You really are losing your damn mind, aren’t you? Over this Rue.”

  “Look, it has taken us a lot to get to where we are. We’ve had big falls outs with our family.”

  “So, they know?” His eyes practically pop out of his head in surprise. “You told them?”

  “We were caught more than anything else.” A small wash of shame covers me. “So, obviously that wasn’t ideal. And Mary is losing her shit about it still, even after all of this time, making it a nightmare between me and my father. Our relationship is strained, there is no doubt about that. But I’m trying.”

  “No girl is worth this.” Noah shakes his head hard. “Don’t you think that’s a clue this can’t work?”

  “No,” I growl back, my standard very defensive response. “No, it will work. It has to.”

  As Noah stares at me, I hear my words the way that he must have done, and shame sinks deep inside of me. I keep making what me and Rue share sound like a fight, like we’re only continuing through this because we’re stubborn. She even said that’s how it comes across the other night, but it isn’t that way at all. We’re in love. We are together because we want to be, because we need to be.

  “Okay, well if that’s how you feel, James, then so be it. But you do need to be careful.”

  The more that people tell me not to fight for Rue, the more I need to keep this up. We haven’t gone through everything just to fall apart now. I narrow my eyes at Noah and try to let him know not to keep fighting me on this. I don’t need it from him as well. He’s supposed to be my friends, he needs to accept this.

  “Is there anything wrong with my work, Noah? Because as far as I’m aware my post grad is running along smoothly, my work with you has been going well, I don’t see any issues.”

  “No, I don’t either. This isn’t about college. This meeting is about you.”

  “Well, thank you for your amazing help,” I shoot back a little sarcastically. “But I need to go now.”

  I shake my head as I storm off, muttering the word ‘unbelievable’ to myself. Deep down I know that Noah is only being a good person and trying to help me, but this is too much, it’s coming from too many angles. It seems like no one wants me and Rue to be as happy. It’s annoying.

  “Oh my God, there you are.” Just as I really don’t need to see another person, Tillie grabs my arm and reminds me that she exists. With everything else going on, I completely forgot about our ill-fated date all that time ago. “I have been trying to get hold of you for ages, but you haven’t been hanging around like normal.”

  “No, well I have too much going on, that’s why.” I try to shake her off, but she’s determined not to let me go. “And I have a lot to do today, which is why I really need to get out of here. Sorry, Tillie. Er, nice to see you.”

  “No way. Wait. You owe me a second date still and I’m waiting for it to happen.”

  “But I told you, didn’t I? I told you that it wasn’t ever going to happen. I said that…”

  “You said it in a way that told me I should hang around.” She shrugs and giggles. “So, I did. And believe me it hasn’t been easy for me to wait around. I have had guys asking me out a lot. I am in demand.”

  As she spins around and poses acting like a playful model, I want to scream. I made it clear. Our first date was awkward. I don’t think that there would have been a second one even if I wasn’t with Rue.

  “You should let one of those guys take you out, Tillie. I guarantee that you will have a better time than you did with me. I was no fun on our date, was I? And that’s for a reason. It would be the same again…”

  “No, it all went wrong because your father got sick,” she insists, reminding me how long it really was since we last had our date. So much has happened since then, it’s absolutely crazy. “But that won’t happen again because he’s better now, isn’t he? I asked around and people said that he’s doing better.”

  I almost ask her how people seem to know so much about me, but I stop at the last minute. Of course, people are interested in Benjamin Roberts and his recovery. He’s a well known person around here.

  “Yes, he’s better, but that wasn’t why things went bad. There was no chemistry there in the first place. You even said it yourself, didn’t you? That I was more fun when I was drunk.”

  “So, we go out and we have a few drinks. Why the hell not? That would make it much more fun.”

  I shake my head no. “Tillie, I can’t. I’m sorry, I thought that you understood that. I didn’t realize…”

  Before I can make my escape, she grabs me and
spins me towards her. She tries to pull me in for a kiss, but I stand strong, so I don’t get dragged in for that. It still leaves me a little too close to her for comfort.

  “James, I don’t understand why you are being this way. I don’t get it at all. Me and you… we really had something. I don’t get why you are turning your back on that now.” She looks at me, completely enraged. “Everyone here says that we make a great couple, so why not show them how good we really are?”

  She hooks her hand around the back of my neck and tries once more to kiss me. This is it, the moment I really need to make her see that me and her aren’t ever going to happen. Never ever. She isn’t the one.

  “I have a girlfriend, Tillie. Okay? So, me and you aren’t going to happen.”

  “You don’t have a girlfriend.” Of course, she doesn’t believe me. Why would she? “I haven’t ever seen her.”

  “Well, she doesn’t attend the school, that’s why. So, there isn’t any reason for you to meet her.”

  “That’s such a shitty excuse, James. She clearly doesn’t exist, or you wouldn’t have gone on a date with me.”

  “I wasn’t with her when I was on a date with you,” I insist. “It happened after that.”

  “Oh, what and now you’re so committed to her? After a few months? Come on, everyone knows you aren’t like that. When do you even see this so-called girlfriend of yours if she doesn’t attend the university?”

  “She lives with me, Tillie, so I see her all the time. Really, this is none of your business.”

  “How is it none of my business? You left me hanging on for ages and now you are making up that you have someone in your life just to push me to one side. You’re a real fucking asshole, James.”